In just a couple of weeks I will be starting my first official Creative Writing course.
I am definitely excited. But to say I'm not nervous at all would be a huge lie. To write is one thing, to be professionally critiqued is another though.
Even though I've decided to take this big step in my writing I have this huge insecurity still hanging over my head.
What if I'm not good enough?
This question has really always been looming over me, but thanks to a few books I've recently read I have finally worked up the courage to jump into this. The most influential book though was, Traveling with Pomegranates. I feel like I really connected to a part of it where Ann Kidd Taylor writes about giving herself up to an apprenticeship in writing. She's not sure whether she can really do it. But in the spirit of how people used to find their "careers" (so to speak) she decides to give herself seven years (the traditional time of an apprenticeship) of writing and trying to figure out how to make it professionally as a writer.
This really made me pause when I was reading it. Of course I knew it would take time to become accomplished - so why was I always beating myself up every time I couldn't figure it all out with in six months? I was burning myself out before I could make a decent start.
So I've decided to give myself an apprenticeship in writing, but only until I am 30. Which gives me about six-ish years to try and make my way into this publishing world.
And I'm about to take my first step.
I am definitely excited. But to say I'm not nervous at all would be a huge lie. To write is one thing, to be professionally critiqued is another though.
Even though I've decided to take this big step in my writing I have this huge insecurity still hanging over my head.
What if I'm not good enough?
This question has really always been looming over me, but thanks to a few books I've recently read I have finally worked up the courage to jump into this. The most influential book though was, Traveling with Pomegranates. I feel like I really connected to a part of it where Ann Kidd Taylor writes about giving herself up to an apprenticeship in writing. She's not sure whether she can really do it. But in the spirit of how people used to find their "careers" (so to speak) she decides to give herself seven years (the traditional time of an apprenticeship) of writing and trying to figure out how to make it professionally as a writer.
This really made me pause when I was reading it. Of course I knew it would take time to become accomplished - so why was I always beating myself up every time I couldn't figure it all out with in six months? I was burning myself out before I could make a decent start.
So I've decided to give myself an apprenticeship in writing, but only until I am 30. Which gives me about six-ish years to try and make my way into this publishing world.
And I'm about to take my first step.
